anything can happen

• • (too longgg...so abit cacat lah and phone problem so it should have been last night post...)
    
    LAST.....second.....DAY OF EXAMMMMM!!! English and Malay tomorrow...
    
    # day one surviving without my maid
    Nah! Im not that weak, i can cope with housework people! Haha...
    
    Studying geography like SOT and didn't end up touching science...PLEASE DONT MAKE ME FLUNK SCIENCE
    
    Rushing on the performance on mtm~ its on saturday, man! It costs rm50 and the place IS NOT EVEN IN MIDVALLEY AND WE HAVE TO WEAR A DRESS! Man! Hate it! Been five years since i last wore a dress...apart from school uniform... Special thanks to yuin qing for lending me her dresses appreacite it very much~ if i can't manage to find a dress on friday, i'll wear yours ON A ROCKET NOW!! ZOOM!! Haha... Ended up talking about disney channel songs and movies their movies are awesome la weih, so romantic and their theme songs rock BIG MISTAKE this is why i didn't quite get to study for science =.= which was so freaking... I dont know how to explain...its not hard.HARD i just didn't know how to answer them...
    
    Geography? Easy peasy! Plently of form1 questions came out, didn't have the confidence of picking the answer, prayed to God and flipped my eraser, it worked! Did it over and over again, being more and more confident about my answers, trust God to give the answers praise God for helping me, thank you so much
    
    Going to the movies with beloved kai ting and pei kee on saturday!! Watching The THING horror movie, gonna sit next to pei kee like the last time, buahahahaha! Gonna take plenty of photoes on saturday~ CANT WAIT MAN!
    
    Now, to some of my personal thoughts...
    
    Getting over you has been the most hurtful and pain event throughout my whole 14 years, but now, knowing that i have gotten over you, it makes me notice how much stronger i am surviving all that pain you caused. But you on the other hand, you have tried and still is trying to hide and run away from problems you practically don't know how to solve them, unlike me, i overcome them. Now, i accept the fact you two are together, i've finally let go, now i know, your not the only important person to me i'm proudly gonna announce that i am totally through with you! Take that you bastard! Im finally getting tired... Im tired of you treating me like a replacement gift...
    
    Days, weeks, months, i have tried to get over you, maybe it did work, but not fully, i get jealous when you are with her, i get upset when i notice that you care for her more, but now, i know that we are not ment for each other... We are destined to part different ways with hurtful memories that stay with me, blinded as i am, i believed in your lies, i trusted you, and you broke that trust, you left me alone, now i truly know what i am... You are surprised how i can look at you two being together in the eye right? Yes, i give up, im raising the white flag. In this 'competition' three of us are holding on to 'cloud nine', but it would never have progress if no one lets go... And now, im letting go, im not a sore loser, you might say how 'play' i am but seriously, think and say for yourself... Im tired of this battle, its not getting me anywhere anyway, why should i continue to hold on?
    
    Our story is like a no-ending love story, not to mean that our love will go on and on forever, it means that we will never be together in the end, we have NO ending together, yes, i have accepted that fact, say anything you want bastard. Thanks to you, you ruined my life, you made me lose so much water in my body, i regret the day meeting you...but honestly, i thank you, i thank you for teaching me how to look at people's true colours, how to get back up when your pushed down, you've trained me how to get stronger day by day, you made me realised how many friends i have to support me and help me through times of difficulty... yes i thank you
    
    Maybe when we were together, you might have loved me, but just then, for that split second, and it ended, just like that. Forcing isn't a way to solve problems, so im letting you go, to the person you truly love. At that time, you loved me, cuz theres a saying that you true love can't be 'faked', and theres no way that you can fake love that is not-true (if you get what i mean) If you loved me, you wouldn't hurt me, but now you hurt me, so you obviously hurt me... Here, i wish the both of you happiness with each other for the next half of your lives. But remember, God watches what we do, and i know one day you will be hurt badly, just you wait for your turn... And then, it will be just too late to turn back time...
    
    A lil' tip to heart-broken singles, don't get mad when you see your ex with another person, our parents had always taught us to give away our old toys to the less fortune Waiting for the next person to come along~ but maybe, i won't be ready yet...not just yet...
    
    New day, new start goodnight everyone, after tomorrow, free for a week!!