Words

Sorry for saying the words that should have not been said.

Call me insensitive,

Call me stupid.

Call me a piece of shit for saying things that should have never left my mouth.

I never really meant to say words without thinking through it thoroughly.

I just assumed that whatever I said wouldn't get to your mind that much,

But unexpected things happens from time to time,

And I looked upon myself too much,

Thinking that everything I said could sound like a joke,

But things never go that smoothly,

Because everything I say,

Will eventually backfire one day.

Sorry for all the feelings you had to go through because of my stupidity.

Because of that one thing I said,

I had to make you feel unexpectedly emotional,

Making you reflect on yourself,

Making you feel everything you have once threw away.

And I should have been more cautious about my words,

About every single thing that was about to come out of my mouth.

Sorry for being an idiot in not thinking clearly before acting out.

Sorry for repeatedly saying that I'm sorry when you clearly wanted me to shut up.

I deserve every seen, every double blue tick, every open notification from you.

Because I probably deserve it,

For saying things that should never be said in words.

For saying words that should never be in sentences.

Maybe what I said could mean nothing to you,

But the reaction you gave to me,

The reactions I received,

Made me realize that,

Words hurt like shape razors sliced on the flesh below your cheekbones.

Where the scar never fades,

Or heals.