Theres no 'if' in this world, whats that happened certainly happened... We can't change history and theres no point crying over spilt milk... But we can make a better future, for our friends, for the world, for the county, for relatives, for anyone...but the most important thing is for ourselves. When problems knock us down, we get back up and fight, I manage to say this, but now, at my most difficult point, I can't even listen to myself, how am I surpose to listen to others? On the outside, I try to hide everything, when you guys ask me if i'm okay, I reply, I'm fine, even if tears are in my eyes.
Why? Why can't I be as strong as I wan't to? Why can't I hold my tears? Why do I have to have limits? Why do you tell me I can't acheieve 100% when others can get 101% ? Why do you tell me that the sky is the limit when there are people walking on the moon? Why? Why change me? Why make me have hatred inside of me? Why do you wan't me to be someone I'm not? Why?
Just for a brighter future? All this might make me crazy one day, all this might make me take the wrong path, all this might destroy me, all this...is not me...
I'm a girl, who might look strong, one who will not kneel down for forgiveness, but I'm not, I'm a fragile little girl who is afraid of trouble, afraid to fail, afraid of losing, afraid of everything...
When I'm alone, I think of the past, of you and me, our memories, and all I see is happiness and laughter, but now, its just silence... Total silence, you left me there... In the cold, to suffer badly... Why? Just for her, aint it? You did so many things for her, and for me? Not to say that I care much, cause I don't I'm just annoyed from the silence, so please? Can we not be strangers anymore and go back to before? I don't wan't much, I'm not pleading for much, I just wanna talk to you, but would you?
I swear, you will regret what you did!
Regards, the real me~
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