#GoodbyesToBio

It's still not officially over yet

But I feel so darn enthusiastic

It's as if SPM isdarn right over

And I can move on without bio anymore

HAHAHAAHAHAHAAH

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原来

原来

听不见那熟悉的声音

TA还未能安心地离开

原来

闭上眼睛后

TA心中最想的依然还是TA

原来

将要醉入永眠的TA

闭上眼睛后

还是走得不安心

Bio Kills

It's a quater after one

Still stuck with neurons

Interneurons

Etc nervous stuff

Bio.

God let me get over with this

I cannot take such sleepless nights

Going to sleep till 2 on wednesday.

I feel like dying now

The Power of Highlighters

Well at least

During the suffers during chemistry studies

I still am able

To remember the times

Where we sat in class

Next to each other

With one highlighter between us.

Because you didn't have one,

Whereas I only had one.

And the story unfolds

Ever since.

Fail Training for Artistic Mind

I want more stationaries

://////

Pens

Markers

Pencils

Colour Pencils

Paper

Water colours

I want crafty items

:////////////

More paper

More pens

Decorative items

Tapes

Clay

Thread

I want DIY pendants

Pendants

More pendants

Thread?

Stuff for making pendants

I want timeeeeeeeee

://///////////////

Lots and lots and lots of time

For reading

Crafting

Photo taking

Drawing

Doodling

Scrapbooking

Artsy thing

Oh.

I want unify

:///////////////////////////////////////////

Emo register unify also no go pull cable

Upset

Upset

Upset

How I chase drama

How I watch tutorials

How I listen music

How I watch anime

Emo

Emo

Emo

Emo

Emo

.

Subject Allergies

Watch my kick those two last donkey science subject

Nope

Not taking Science anymore

Nor accounts.

Maybe physics,

But no not Chemi nor Bio.

Allergic to these three subjects.

Graphs

Life is everything

But a tangent graph

Because in sin graphs

Or cos graphs,

You either start at your

Maximum point,

Minimum point,

Or mean position.

Nothing stays,

Nor continuously increases,

Or continuously decreases.

It swaves up and down.

And after going down,

To the depths of the end

To the bottom where all negativity stays,

It will definitely rise once again.

It's just a matter of time.

Significance

When you lose someone in your dreams,

What does this actually signify?

The lost of someone's presence

Or

The lost of your own presence in that person's life

?

Yet you try to think of a solution,

But nothing comes into mind

You try to work things out,

But everything just keep ending up badly.

What if,

You did not lose someone.

What if,

That person died?

Would it mean the physical death of that person?

Or an emotionally death of that person towards yourself?

Idk what this is about

If we were plotted on a graph,

We would be inversely proportional

With you against me.

With me,

There'll be no you

With you,

There'll be no me.

Slipping Away

One day

When she slips away from your palms

Oh so silently,

Without any prior notice,

As if she was a raindrop

Falling from the sky,

Sliding from the top of a skyscraper

To the bottom of a sewage drain

Then sinking to the bottom of the sea.

Would you notice

Her long lost presence

And feel her

Slipping away

With no way to grasps back on

To that hand you still long for

?

Being Difficult

I feel so difficult

Sometimes it's as if I should be separated

Into different realms

To be on my own

Where no one would feel

The pain I bring

The sorrow I bring

The nasty crap I bring.

Maybe life would be all so much better

If you all hadn't met me

You could've achieved your dreams

You could've met new people

You could've saved yourself from drowning in this misery

This presence seems of a nuisance,

Tell me if you need me to leave

Hint to me if you would like me vanished

I would go,

Willingly

In a snap.

#SoDoneWithAccounts

Big blow to the face today

Oh well,

It's farewell to accounts!

But I was kinda sad

Because I studied so hard for yuran

Since the last exam

But nooooooooooooooooooo

Apparently,

They don't like yuran

:((((((

Gosh never stepping into accountancy

I might die facing all the numbers,

And inbalance accounts

Cries

Waiting for everyone to score so badly

With hopes the graph will drop

And the grade levels drop too

#FingersCrossed

#ByeByeAccounts

Messangers

When pigeons were messangers,

Letters were passed over,

Messages were read,

And replied too.

When phones were introduced,

We realise the ignorance

When someone doesn't reply.

Blue tick or not,

You would know.

Yet if it was a pigeon,

You could lie to yourself,

Saying that the letter was lost,

Or if it were sent to the wrong place.

Now,

You'd just have to be truthful,

And accept that you would not get a reply.

If only. If only. If only.

If only,

We had if only.

If only,

We could be what we want.

If only,

Things could go on smoothly.

If only,

Pain did not exist.

If only,

We could be where we want.

If only,

We had unlimited wishes.

If only

There was if only.

Wish List

You guys have a to-buy-list

And then I suddenly thought about this,

I want a wish list.

Because it's impossible for me to pay,

No matter how much my yearly income is.

I wish for myself
To be able to
Buy more of his time
For myself.

How selfish.

Why hahahaahaha

Why so many to buy list

HAHA

I also want one

:')))

Keeping In Touch

"How much I wished,

We could keep in touch

From now,

Till forever."

You say it,

Actually mean it.

However,

Said easier than done.

To the four years of friendship,

Though we only meet once a week.

To the few months of friendship we have made,

Though its only been a year,

Or a few months perhaps.

You make every Saturday a time I look forward to,

And a time,

I never want to leave.

Easy to make friends,

Hard to be friends,

Even harder to stay as friends.

As the years go by,

Would we always be this close?

Would we ever have a chance to take oh so carefree as we do?

We came from different schools,

Meet only once a week.

And yet,

The strength of this friendship seems unbreakable.

We'll see if distance would be a problem,

If time would get in the way,

And of we can overcome all these obstacles,

Perhaps,

'Forever'

Would be engraved on our friendship. 

That promise sign we made,

Was the most touching thing

I've ever encountered

With you guys these 4 years.

<3

BFF

始

游戏的第一关,

已过不了

怎有希望

继续过关

继续玩

?

:)

让微笑掩饰自己的悲伤

:)

Addiction

Hooking up on too much drama

Too much anime

Too much fictional life

Even if it's in the middle of major exams

Even if all the calculation tests are arriving

Even if all the Science subjects are piling up

Even if I'm nit quite yet prepared.

Shit.

Double shit.

My hand should be writing

Not doodling.

Shit.

完蛋了

当我发现

晚上睡前

满脑都是你的回忆

我就知道

自己已离不开这生活

已离不开你的影子

November

Chipped lips

Signify the unwelcomed winter storm

Dry weather,

With remaining brown maple leaves falling off trees

Signify the end of autumn,

The start of winter.

Summer will come again,

No doubt

The world continues to spin around the sun

At a constant speed,

May I emphasize.

However at this constant speed,

It is as if your life shortens

As you age

Even if time,

Probably travelling at the speed of light

Is equal for everyone.

The first day,

Stepping into a whole new environment

With no one to grasp to

Has now submerged into the end

Where everyone wears their graduation gown

Which is too the last memory you'll ever have in high school.

Starting in January,

Ending in December five years later.

Remarkable,

Unpredictable,

Years have past,

Yet,

You still long to begin this journey again.

Because,

You cannot predict the future.

And you wouldnt know

If all the newly made friendship bonds you've once thought is strong,

Will last

Till eternity

Till forever.

Friends,

You make them,

But how often

Do you stay?

Different societies,

Different studies,

Different worlds,

Different topics,

And may I ask,

Would our bonds as friends remain?

Or will they vanish,

Unpredicabally.

Illusion

Hearing things,

Waiting for the phone to ring.

Sighing over and over again

With hopes of it to ring

Manners

Oh so now

"Thank you"

Is for the help people need not give

And the help people should give

Does not need to be thanked

:)

Manners?

Appreciation?

You say that to elders

But what about your own peers

Your juniors

?

Isn't that just as disrespectful?

You say thank you to the one who you take a photo with

And yet the one who takes the photo for you gets nothing in return

Not even a simple

"Thank you"

:)

Crew Members

Crew members

School unemployed,

No pay

Photographers.

They work throughout the year

Under the sun

The rain

The loud music

Under any circumstances

Or weather.

To produce photos

For others.

Sometimes,

They don't even appear anywhere in the school magazine

They don't get credit

And yet,

People still pester them to upload photos

Without a scent of grattitude.

Graduation photos

We graduates sacrifice our time

Our effort

Willingly

To snap a good photo of yourselves collecting your cert

And yet,

No one acknowledges our hard work

No one appreciates

Because not a single thank you is uttered

After you're satisfied with the photos you have.

Then,

You get left out,

Scolded,

Told off,

Not conscidered about

Because of you're inexisting presence

Which is so mere

To the fact where everyone can

Ignore

Neglect

Reject

And not bothered about.

Ohana is ohana

When you know whose left out

And not bothered about

Where everyone can ignore

And continue smiling

Even when someone isn't present.

Yeah,

That's a real family.

Nice.

Yeah. Because my existance and presence is questionable

And until the end

Maybe a person's presence isn't that important at all

Because everybody gets forgotten

Or at least

Some people do.

For What?

Hell yeah

I am just pissed

It's not as if I have a choice

And in the end

Everything is done for the others

And us?

Not even a simple grattitude gesture.

For what

Do we do all this for

?

To be accused for something we did not do

To be treated as if we were some sort of item being pushed around

Right,

As if we enjoy it.

And yes

I still am utterly pissed.

D-9 Outing ;P

Went to MidValley because my mom wanted to go to CIMB's exhibition points collection (or something like that) so I went to Starbucks in Borders, because it was the quietest place around, to do some catching up with studies.

OOTD of the day (wore it the day before to our club's jamuan)
Matched a long sleeves button up white blouse with a black and red skater skirt both from Voir
The dream catcher vintage necklace is from a friend. Wore it like a necktie around the collar making it seem as if it is part of the blouse.
Taken by Samsung Galaxy S4

Shoes! Bought them in Singapore a few years back.
Taken at the hospital the previous day, Had to make a visit because of eye infection (or eye allergy)
Taken By Samsung Galaxy S4

Sat at a table around the middle aisle watching people come and go, smelling the aroma of coffee, enjoying the background classing songs playing from a distance while studying Biology. Halfway through I was quite inspired to write so I ended up with 'Her Pendant'. http://when-skies-turn-grey.blogspot.com/2014/10/her-pendant-1.html

Tried the new Dark Caramel Frappuccino.
Holy yes it tastes like heaven.
I've changed my name, thank you Starbucks
Taken By Samsung Galaxy S4

Surprisingly my mom actually praised me for writing something nice, it is a first, and she asked me if i wanted to take double degree. Months ago I was still wondering if I should take language or architecture but I came down to architecture because

1. I don't enjoy teaching, especially little brats
2. My parents discourage me to take up that language because, it's language

And now, she asks if I want to take double degree, nice mom, very nice.

This was for dinner.
One of my favourite dishes so I only took a photo of this marvelous cod fish at a seafood restaurant.
Taken By Samsung Galaxy S4


Single Digit 9 to SPM

D-9

D-9
Single digit to our local exams
A week before secondary life ends.

I'm not ready
I don't want to leave.
Distance is going to be a problem within our friendship

Yet,
I have fate in our strong bonds
Because no matter how far apart we all are,
We'll still be together with each other.

A drive to each oyher houses
A walk down town
A trip to a café
A little message sent to each others phones
It isn't that hard

I should be studying
Why am I still blogging

And I've just realised I haven't prepared for the first weeks exams.

D-9
9 more days.

Enternity {3}

Chipped lips brushing over

Ever so fervently

Husky whispers about forever

Amiss the snowy flake falling

And the frightful blizzard

Foreheads attatched

Noses touching

As their lips leaned in

Savouring the moment of electric shock

Running down their bodies

Till enternity he whispered

Till enternity she echoed

Under the witness of fallen angels





-MichelleW.

End Of The Road {2}

The dismay should be let out

Bravely like raindrops

Falling fearlessly onto rocky waves

Acting immoral

Believing in life after death

Chipped hearts broken songs

She sways her head along to the beats of the radio

In this vintage memorable car

The raindrops fall

And the swiper sweeps them away

Away into oblivion these raindrops go

Along with the memories held so dearly

Sigh to the dark clouds

Looming above the roof of the tainted car

Disappear she whispers

While witchcraft takes place

Silently sinking her head onto the steering

Into the depth of darkness.

-MichelleW.

Her Pendant {1}

Classic music playing in the background

Coffee cup in one hand

Sipping it ever so eloquently

There she sat in the corner

Wonders filling her thoughts

Rays of the sunlight

Glowed as it hit her flawless face

Undoubtedly the atmosphere was yearning for attention

There as she sat in the corner

Mind wondering to the ends of the world

Eye smiles from below

Yet not one greeting from her was returned

As her eyes stayed focused on the blue sea

Her other hand unconsciously touched the pendent hanging on her neck

Ever so gently

The dolphin sparkled upon her touches

As it faced the never ending sea view

There she sat

Reminiscing those faded memories

As the dolphin sparkled once again

Along with the sea

-MichelleW.

Wednesday Mini Outing

Had Chinese replacement tuition class on Wednesday which was a public holiday so we had a little outing at Sri Petaling after that.

We were driven there by Pei Kee's mom and walked around a little before getting to the shop. It was a cafe recommendation by Li San called Mon Boulangerie Kitchen. It had a really nice and cozy interior with a a very costly looking coffee making machine at the counter.

The Counter Table

Taken by Nikon D3200 

Had trouble ordering because everything on the menu seemed tasty and mouth watering but we were all quite tight on cash. After hours of waiting for a certain someone to decide on her food, we've finally ordered. Cai Yi and I were craving for Smoked Salmon Salad but sadly we didn't get that order.

Because this picture was too fab to not be posted.

Prom Queen and I candid shot because tbh we weren't that prepared

Taken by Nikon D3200 

Lunch which finally arrived
Taken by Nikon D3200

My Grilled Chicken with fries and salad
Taken by Nikon D3200 

Pei Kee's Ham and Chicken with Cheese
Taken by Nikon D3200 

Cai Yi's Grilled Cheese Fish
Taken by Nikon D3200 

After lunch we weren't that full so we decided to have dessert, maybe cakes or pastries somewhere. Walked to the other end of the street we still couldn't get a decent pastry shop. Saw a really nice skirt in F Block though, I am currently obsessed with skirts.

Ochado was replaced with a classy looking cafe which had a really strong aroma of coffee. They didn't do much renovation so it looked pretty much the same as before. (There was a really good looking guy there though)

We ended up walking back all the way to Baskin Robbins which was on the other side of Sri Petalling. The whole walk there was full of complains about not knowing how to cross the street, the blazing sun, and not knowing the road to Baskin Robbins. How dare we call ourselves decent Queen Guides? (inside joke here :P)

Anyway after walking past the market where Cai Yi complained about the fish stench, I spotted McDonalds and due to the excitement I shouted IT'S MCDONALDS and then immediately after, I spotted Baskin Robbins and obviously, I shouted I FOUND BASKIN ROBBINS. 

Yeah, oops I feel like  hooligan which escaped from the jungle or something. Tarzan here!

Rainbow Sherbet with World Class Chocolate just because it was Pink Day
Taken by Nikon D3200 

Three of us pigs enjoying ice cream before the storm hit us
Taken By Galaxy S4

That's about out mini outing and probably the last outing we will ever have before SPM

Count Down 12 Days from 22/10/2014

Infinite

I hope she makes you happy

Like how he makes me happy

I hope you walk down the road with the girl you really want to be with

Because that's exactly what I want to do with him

And to say that I've once imagined us

But that imagination is now replaced

With a different companion

For the both of us.

Fate has its way.

And if you're totally not fated,

Then there is not much of a difference

If you hold on too tight to a one sided love

To stand back up,

Was difficult

But once you've reached the top of the stairs

And unexpectedly meet someone new along the way

Someone who cared enough to break down the walls you've tried to build

Then that flight of stairs

Is worth falling off.

Because now,

History has played its part

And now the past is somewhere behind all those tiny steps

While we're walking down the present

Stepping into the future.

I'm glad you've once appeared

I can't say that I'm glad you have left

But I am definitely

Hundred and one percent

Ecstatic, euphoric, enlightened

To have someone like him

Appearing along the flight of steps I fell off.

Because he,

Is my infinute blessing.

>:PPPP

You knew I wrote that

Without even checking

And I did

Yay

:P 

I seriously think that you have installed some sort of secret camera to spy on me somehow

:3

The Knot Around Your Finger

When you make those

Little irresistable adorable actions.

You might not notice

But the deep shade of blush

Smeared across my cheeks

Is as crimson as blood red.

Some palms might fit perfectly

Too perfect to be fit together

But ours

Is an exception

Because as they say

Opposites make up the best pair

And what's better than to be from two separate worlds?

Because it's just us against the world

♡

Everything

"Love,

Is what makes you smile

When you feel tired"

Fallen

Broken

In pieces

But so what?

As long as the smile never disappears

We can be against all odds

Fighting gravity together

Swimming across the atlantic ocean

Surviving titanic together.

Everything is worth it.

To be

Or not to be

Able to survive when you're gone.

Honestly,

I might not know it now.

But if you would really like to know,

There is a difference

Between surviving and living.

I might be survivng yet not living.

Yes,

I'm alive.

Yes,

I'm surviving.

However,

I might be dead all inside

The moment you step away forever.

Negative thoughts are the demons within ourselves

Trying to pursue you to have the same fate as them

But we have our eyes

Our hearts

Our souls to guide us through

With the hand you want to hold on to

If there was a replay button,

I would not want to rewrite our history

I would like for us to go through hardships together

And understand ourselves better

Get past through all the rocky mountains hand in hand

Before reaching the top together.

Because one day when you look back

The thought of falling down the clift with no one to hold onto

Was something ridiculous

Those negative thoughts

Were just a detour down to the right path.

It's not about how long you let go

It's about how tight you hold onto

After letting go

The fear of losing someone will always be within ourselves

It's just up to yourself to brush the negative thoughts away

Because

"To love is nothing

To be loved is something

But

To be loved by the one you love is everything"

And everything

Is currently engraved on my heart.

ILY
<3

Yeah, unlikely of me to say it
But I really do.
♡

加油!我们行的 ♡

也许

这只不过是

把感情放下的一段日子

好好的利用剩下的日子

来做最后的冲刺

果然

不一样的人

呈献出的结果

是不一样的

所说的话

带给你的领悟

是不相同

回到家后

把所有的专注力

放在学业上

剩于的

都暂时抛下

在睡前回想

那些甜蜜的日子

就已足够了

或许我真的已经

在想通的那一晚

把一切都放下了

不再为别人的看法

而贬低自己

看小自己

因为

我相信命运

相信未来

相信我们

加油哦!

你行的

我也像你一样

我们都行

为未来的我们而付出

你说

这一切

值不值得呢

?

当然

当然值得

<3

When You Have No Where To Run

It took all my guts to stand up

And stop those fallen tears

From this continuous downfall on my cheeks.

Into the toilet I went

With a frown

Which changed into a crooked smile

After looking at my pathetic expressions.

Flashbacks upon my angsty childhood memories

Where I would cry in the toilet all alone

Or have tears flow silently as I sleep by the window

Where the chilly winds reminded me of how cold the society is towards downgraded and weak people

Into elementary school I went

Where I was the biggest loser

The biggest introvert

A total contradict of my current self

But deep down

I know

That the introversial self of mine has not throughly disappeared.

Back to the topic,

Elementary school wasn't a bliss or a walk in the park either.

Emotions bottled up inside

Until it was filled to the brim

And then finally after 10 years of holding on vaguely,

I finally exploded.

That was a family problem.

However the school problems I have had was no lesser than the family one.

Ditched,

Separated,

Ignored,

Neglected,

The many adjectives I can describe myself as during that period.

But I still managed to hold on

And this incident never exploded.

Nevertheless,

It wasn't a smooth ride

During the first 12 years of life.

And then there came a change when I entered high school.

Where I told myself I needed a change.

Which went for all the better.

This change brought me up,

This change was a turning point.

It was a bright approach

But it was too a nightmare.

Betrayal,

Arguments,

Loneliness,

Misunderstandings.

Things I could never run away from for some reason.

Each year,

A problem would crop out.

Put me in misery,

In fear,

In darkness.

But that was all in the past.

Putting down is hard,

Forgetting is impossible

Getting over is a miserable phase

I'm proud,

Of myself

With my achievements

And the way I handle things.

But donkey hole,

You don't know me,

You don't know my story,

You don't know what it feels like to be me.

Your approach in solving the problem

Has skinned me alived

Cut me in the flesh with a sharpened knife.

While the crimson blood red liquid flows down

The iron smell of it filling up the room

All you do is believe

What you're doing is for the best.

Honestly,

It isn't.

You're killing my inside.

I do mind a lot.

Maybe it's time to cut all the shit out and focus.

Today will be the last day

Misery hits me

Because in the mirror I saw myself

The girl with a fire within her heart,

The girl who might seem weak due to her fallen tears,

The girl who forcefully rips out every thorn stucked in her heart

The girl who remembers all details but puts them down after some time in order to make peace,

The girl who erases all sorts of suicidal thoughts,

The girl who has dreams of her own,

The girl who does not give a damn for what people think after knowing where she stands,

The girl who strives for what she wants,

The girl who dies emotionally over and over again but regains strength after each blow,

The girl who grows from misery and pain,

The girl who gives a crooked smile which ends up being something optimistic and positive.

Because this girl,

Has the guts to live,

Without regrets.

This girl,

Will not back down in a war.

Even if she dies her soul will haunt the living.

She will not ever give up.

Because she isn't weak.

As long as she stands up,

As long as she has true hearted people on her side,

As long as she motivates herself.

You will not ever have a chance to defeat her.

Because,

She is one strong willed person.

This crooked smile,

Gives her strength.

Because she knows

God will always be with her,

Things happen for a reason.

She knows that people who love her,

Will always be behind her back.

She believes in the one who gives her strength.

And lastly,

She has a backbone which backs her up from falling on her knees to demons who try to possess her.

There's the optimistic smile.

The smile which allows her to walk down

Stronger,

Tougher,

Undefeatable.

All the better it would be

To cut open your eyes with a blade

Even if it bleeds

Because you will manage to get away from people who try to take your possessions away.

People who try to backstab you.

With this pair of 'opened' eyes

The world seems clearer

Because you've let go of the one who has utterly gave you an emotion called

Sadness.

I opened my palms and let the wind take away every bit of sand left.

"Let it go"

Am I right?

To survive longer,

The only method is bt staying stronger.

So what,

If there are dirty glances,

I believe in myself.

In you.

In others.

Because the world still has people who love you,

Even if they do not always show it.

长痛不如短痛

Thank you

For showing me

Your true colours.

For telling me,

How important it is to open your eyes before trusting.

I don't hate you.

I don't need to.

In fact,

I feel sorry for you.

Because you're only going to hurt yourself in the process

If things like this continue.

While I,

Get hurt

Cry

Talk

Stop

Clear my mind

Stand up

Motivate myself

Remind myself about the people who truly love me for who I am

Smile

and finally,

Move on.

Smile, Everything Gets better

Smile, Nothing Lasts Forever

Smile, Be Grateful For What You Have

Smile, For Being Yourself

And having a life to enjoy.

:)

A real smile

Plastered on my face now

And I know
It'll always be
#UsAgainstTheWorld

♡

Against Everything

Against all odds

Against all protests

Against all assumptions

We'll be defying gravity

Twisting facts

Changing history

Making new illogical suggestions

Crediting when you should be debiting

Debiting when you should be crediting

Adding when you should be subtracting

Subtracting when you should be aidding

Not caring because I can

Not listening because I want to

Making me fall is your decision

Standing up is my choice

Breating is my option

Living is my chance of survival

Ending is not an ending

Holding on is everything

Prioritising anyhow anyway is my choice

Changing my priority is not yours

My business

Is my own

Either stay out of it

Or be a part of it

If it's shit you give

It's shit you get

Either way,

Karma will get back at you.

You might spit poison

While trying to take me down

But don't forget about snakes who die from biting themselves

It's their own poison which ends their own lives.

A very mere chance,

But don't forget what concept you love holding onto

A chance is still a chance.

Remember not to lose yourself halfway.

Because

No matter what people say

No matter how the odds are scattered about

It'll still be us against the world.

Yeah, the unreasonable 'What If'

Don't mention anything

About a forest of trees

When you can't even

Accept one.

There might be a reason

To why some things are done behind people's back

But,

Have you ever sincerely thought about the outcome

For doing these things behind people's back.

What if things got out of control

What if the words you've said got taken seriously

What if someone's future got utterly annihilated

Although it might have not happened to that particular person yet.

But what if?

What if a catastrophe broke out

And left everything in pieces

Too shattered

Too broken

To be fixed.

Maybe a replacement is what you dread for

Because some people aren't that big of a class in your mind

They don't make that standard

Correction,

They don't make your standard.

And to those who don't,

As the society views,

They are longed to be disposed.

They are longed to be forgotten.

They are very much longed to be replaced.

But Now...

And up untill now

I am still

Not the person

Who solves the problems

Yes

I might be no Newton

But at least I used to be able to figure out the problem and slove them

But now...

Noooooooooooo

Emo shit.

We're gonna die

We're gonna die

We're gonna die

We're gonna die

We're gonna die

I don't want us to die a second time 

Cries

Kill me please 

忠奸人

Great plot,

Shitty ending

Never watching you again.

Damn you!

How could you,

Make such a plot twist

And make the guy I really like

Have this sort of ending.

WHY

:'(

Limit

I want to now

Throw every single vulgar at you

You seem to have a love for making people miserable

For making people hate you

Congratulations, 

You've successfully once again made my hate for you grow oh so tremendously

Maybe you don't even give a damn,

Because I'm probably a nobody in you eyes

Or maybe

Somebody who has been shattering your hope upon someone else's shoulders

If you think

You can continuing locking me down, 

Sorry,

But you've just made me want to rebel so badly

Perhaps skip school for a whole month

Now that would be some show to watch

Would you enjoy it?

Don't act as if you're so carring

Asking me how I'm supposed to get better results

But in the end

Who am I to you?

Maybe,

All you want is for the class to ace the exam

So that you wouldn't have to be in trouble.

I got to my limit

Don't make me explode

心事

我本身

是不常笑的

然而

不知及时开始

我学会把真正的一面收藏起来

挂个笑容出来

我讨厌看见人家悲伤的那一面

所以尽量把自己悲伤的感情锁上

只要人家开心

那什么都值得

做人不是应该为人家着想

而不是

自私地为自己而已吗

所以有时候我宁愿

让自己受苦... ...

当我回到家

进到房

我才能找回真正的我

爱笑的那一面

只不过是短暂性的

最终,

自己还是孤独的

自己还是会胡思乱想

而渐渐地,

爱笑的面目也被裁下来

眼泪一丝一丝地留下自己的脸颊

表面上虽然是不大介意

可是你们都不知道

心中的痛苦

其实很多细小的事

我都很上心

有很多评语

让我很认真地去改变自己

改变的痛苦

你们都不知道

改变的过程

你们更加不知道

而令人最失望的是

改变了

你们却不知道

怎么会讲到这儿

我真的不知道

也许是

心里有太多太多的事情隐瞒着

连自己都不知道

原来自己有那么多心事

原来我还有

很多

很多

很多

的垃圾要倒

地位

你,

高高在上

而我?

却在下面高望

看着你

这明明就是

不同层次的人

然而,

你偏就是要看中她

她

只不过是

另一个平凡的女生

你以为

你配不上她

可是

你却忘了自己的身份

忘了自己的地位。

其实

不是你配不上她

而是

她配不上你

这世界上

多的是她这种女生

不如找一个

另类

特别

有气质

配得上你

的女人

这个她

才适合你的名分

你的名誉

你的地位

因为这个她

跟你一样

都是高高在上的人

她

绝对

不会成为其他人的闲话

因为

她跟你是同样层次的人。

这个她

才值得你的所有

Classes

So what

If they're good people,

They might have chosen the wrong one.

Exactly,

How would one so high up

Look at a bottom class person

So what

If they're happy

They're still from different classes

Different worlds

And someday,

They'll realize how wrong their decisions have been.

我不配

说实话,

我们到底有多不同

有多不配

明明就是两个世界的人

命运这样安排又怎样?

最终

也不是

配不上你

This Time

It's a screen separating us all.

Allowing us to only interact

With each other through

Messages

Photos

Texts

Logins

Checkouts

You're rated online

With the amount of likes

The amount of followers

The amout of time you spend there

Not knowing

That we've actually created a fake image for ourselves

Letting others judge us,

Judge our characters

Based on what they see online

What happened to hanging out

Writing letters

Talking

?