My first post about twenty fourteen will be about my last thoughts of life at the age of 16. I've quit blogging for sometime but now I am determined to keep blogging and expressing inner thoughts of life in words rather than ranting crap to everybody else.
Behind these walls holds a soft heart, a weak mind, a contradicting soul and a mind that wonders "what is life actually?". So this blog post will be dedicated to a teenage girl who will be turning 17 in three more days.
I mostly go by Michelle, but some call me Chelle Chelle and other idiotic nicknames which I find quite interesting. They call me selca queen, stating that my selfie skills have reached a master degree, my most favourite nickname.
I tend to bury myself in books, allowing myself to sink into the wonders of fantasy. I run away from reality, sinking into the author's world. I read, I imagine and I feel.
"And that's why books are never going to die. It's impossible. It's the only time we really go into the mind of a stranger, and we find our common humanity doing this. So the book doesn't only belong to the writer, it belongs to the reader as well, and then together you make it what it is"
-Peter Auster
Perfect quote for a good book.
I love staining my hands with crafting materials, cutting and pasting little bits of paper and art supplies. I love stationary, but stationary and art supplies are quite costly, so I turn to making my own DIY items. Saves money and the earth. I am in love with creating little things, I could craft all day but time never seems to be enough. Currently working on DIY scrapbooks which plainly stores my happy times, by next year, I am going to start my own #projectlife.
I capture moments with my Nikon D3200, saving memories into a small microchip. The smiles on their faces bring joy to me when i press the replay button on my camera. These moments of laughter and time spent together will always remain in the form of a picture even if time has past. That captured moment might have been buried in the past, but it's not gone entirely, it remains deep in our heart, somewhere in the past.
I go all out with my family and close friends, only they know the real side of myself. A father is a son's hero, a daughter's first love. Daddy, I'll always be your number one princess and no matter who I end up with next time, you'll always be my first love. A mother cares, a mother nags, a mother talks, a mother listens. She's like the feminine side of my father, another person I cannot bear to lose so soon. She carried me, watched over me, taught me and brought me up. Thank you mom. I cannot find another mother whom is as close to your personality. The clothes and food warm me up along with your love. This sister, annoying and bratty. What a copycat! I tend to always scream, but deep down, an imagine of her leaving this world brings tears to me.
"Aloha means family, and family means nobody gets left behind"
-Walt Disney, Stitch
Friends, the sickening bunch of people who tend to make you hate and love them at the same time. I used to be an introvert, but unexpectedly I've turned out to be an extrovert in my teenage days.
"Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're going to get"
-Forest Gump
Never knew how much joining Girl Guide would have changed my life until I looked back and said Oh My Gosh I didn't know I used to be like that. The people I met during my teenage days in my secondary school has made a huge impact on myself, life is short, and my life wouldn't have been YOLO if they never appeared.
I sink into dramas, having all sorts of feels while drinking a hot cup of green tea. The way the main actors and actresses shed tears brings me into sorrow and grief. Angst story lines may sometimes be cliche but they have never once failed in bringing salty tears into my eyes. I reflect on life too while immersing myself into the scene, thinking about what I would do if I were in he or her shoes. I wonder too much, and also think too much, but I can't blame the dramas. Some of the plots are too good to miss and not to mention the good looking guys who appear as perfect manga characters.
Last but not least, I plug in my earphones, and listen to songs which eventually calms my tense mind and drift away from reality. I shut the world out, drowning into this alcohol called music.
The world spins, society judge, you cannot change how you look nor how people look at you, so why take the hard path and make yourself suffer?
Take the one which makes you happy, and not the one which makes you regret.
Michelle, age 16, turning 17 in three days, my last thoughts about life at the age of 16.
Love. Live. Eat. Read. Capture. Treasure. Pray.
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