雨过天青

Today, its a day with all emotions, happy, sad, angry, and everything else. But im gonna be positive, so just wanna say that...I GOT 145 FOR MY SCIENCE TEST!FULL 5% ADDED INTO EXAM!WOOHOO! Special thanks to the teacher, cause she found a place to gimmie extra marks, YIPPIE!
I've been thinking about my whole 14 years old, things have changed alot since the begining of the year, since I graduated from primary school. Like I said, no one can change you, only you can change yourself, I have became more open, more rebelious, made more friends, but, I make friends fast, which means I lose them easily too, look at us, we were so close before, but now, yea, you talk to me, and treat me as a great friend, but were not like before, I don't know why, but it just feels wierd, what has happened between us? We aren't like before. Maybe it's me, maybe I don't understand, outta all my friends, who still are there for me all the time? Maybe just one or two. I don't know why,but you guys give me the feeling that you don't really care. This year is the year I learnt the most, failed the most, laughed the most, and not to mention cried the most. Why? All thanks to you, YES YOU. You know who you are, because of you, these tears just keep rolling down my cheeks, ever heard the song 'every tear drop is a waterfall'? This song title so represent what I feel now cause the thorn in my heart is still not outta my heart, the knife you stabbed in my back may be out, but the wound is not cured yet. I used to think that if anyone hurt me, I won't shread a tear, but I failed in that, cause I have my limits. Because of you, everytime someone hurts me, no matter how small, these tears just keep following outa my eyes, not because they hurt me, its because I thought about how you hurt me so badly. I know, everyone tells me that you are not the one, they tell me to get over you, I know you used me, but your side effect is so huge that, even I can't hold back, I loved you so much but you just played on me, I can't accept this fact. When I'm alone, I think about my past, and the first one to show up on my mind is you, its time to move on, but it seems that my feet got stuck in swamp mud. You say that you wanna be friends with me, but now, were like strangers. All that I can say is that I believe that everything that happened is made to be happened by God. So now, I just gotta sit back and wait. If you come crawling back to me,pleading me one day, I'm gonna just say its too late. Your a sad-fairy-tale-maker that everyone hates, one that ruins true love, wait till the true prince comes, and there you go, yea, go, get outta my life. And now, i wanna tell you that , I'm over you, now, I can happily enjoy life without having to care about you anymore.
Gonna end my post with a poem i wrote, original ay me!
Love is in the air,
You can catch hearts anywhere,
Couples attached like sticky glue,
Not to mention that they can't let loose,
But love is not always fair,
Heart breaker everywhere,
Don't make things twist and turn around,
Cause you are the only one I found,
Love is true and very strong,
Letting go will be so wrong,
Breaking hearts are so not cool,
Just because another is making you drool,
All you have to is say I love you,
And the answer will be I love you too
This poem is dedicated to you, NO, not you who broke my heart, i know its you and you know its you cuz that's what our hearts tell us <3